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Long ago, before I was 21 years old, I was one of those who played all the eating disorder games because I knew, absolutely knew for sure my life would be best if I kept my weight under 120lbs (I was barely 5’8”). I did achieve this goal, until I nearly destroyed my health and had to find another way to be thin.
Not long after that, I decided my life would be perfect if I found the “right” man. I did this at age 23 and married him, back in 1979. He is still the right man.
When I was 24, I was determined that if I just owned my own house, life would be fantastic and easier. One year later, my husband and I bought our first house. It was exciting – and scary and I started fixing it up, until I saw other people’s homes that were decorated prettier and nicer than mine. Once again I was washed over with my core beliefs of how uncreative I was and no matter what I did, it was never good enough.
So I switched my focus to having children, because I knew I would be the perfect mother after the lousy childhood I had. I knew for sure, if I had children, my life would be complete. Within 3 years, I gave birth to 2 daughters fairly easily. My secret goal was to raise perfect children.
I was miserable. My husband was a saint, my children got along beautifully, I was still 118lbs, exhausted and depressed. I hated my body, ate sugar all the time, and compulsively focused on lack of money and how to obtain more. I really truly believed if I had more money to spend that I could buy more things and I would be happier.
My husband worked overtime at his job and gave me his paychecks. I was very practical. I always kept a reasonable amount in savings and spent the rest on what I thought was necessary. I continually ate sugar to keep the depression from showing, and so I would appear perky to the rest of the world.
I created a lovely, lovely garden with a lawn for my children to play, secret little pathways, a tree to climb and flowers blooming everywhere. It was beautiful to everyone but me. I could only see the occassional weed, any flower that was dying back (actually completing its natural life cycle) and the one brown spot whenever it appeared in the lawn during a heat wave.
I kept gardening every day trying to create a perfect garden that others would approve of, chronically stressed all day every day. My life was equivalent to standing in a forrest unable to experience the majestic trees.
I got everything I thought about.
I did not know back then that The Law of Attraction was at work in my life and that I was attracting negatively - attracting by default.
Today that struggle is over.
By the grace of God, I am no longer looking for external things to bring me happiness. My husband stood by my side, hardly saying a word as I journeyed beyond the depression, clearing away all the dysfunction of my mind. If the shoe had been on the other foot, I do not know if I could have stayed married to me for all those years.
Life has a wonderful way of giving us the support we need to get through anything. My husband says he has no regrets – and he is married to the New and Improved me.
The Law of Attraction is a wonderful book to have on the coffee table to assist us in anchoring in a new way of Being. Although it is easy to read, I took nearly 2 months to complete the book. I would read a few pages and then I would have to put the book down. It takes time for the concepts to integrate as the old patterns and beliefs dissolve.
I Recommend ~ and to Purchase ~
Money, and the Law of Attraction Book
And
The Astonishing Power of Emotions
Both by Ester and Jerry Hicks
May these books and our website, be a catalyst for your transformation into a brighter and easier more enjoyable life.
Maryanne Maldonado, Intuitive Wellness Coach
Tucson AZ
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